Shall be last blog entry of the day.
Just finished a mini operation. (*exaggerating*)

My legs are seriously swollen and i showed meemee and meemee say quite serious.
And she boiled hot water to get rid of the "poison". She dipped her hand into the HOT WATER to soak the towel and squeeze it dry.
Who can do that? Only your own meemee can do that.
When she lay the towel on my leg, i can feel that it's HOT la! But feels good since it's itchy and pain too.
Then after some rubbing and some pressing. She stopped and examine my leg. I hate it when she does that. And i can never escape from her NEEDLE! You see, due to the itchiness, i scratched it. AND CANNOT! BEcause it will worsen the condition. So, now got small tiny blister thingy all over the leg. Meemee say is poison.
T_T
AND COMES THE ATTACK OF THE NEEDLE. I tell you, when it comes to the attack of the needle, my meemee won't go easy. She will poke and pull. SO IT HURTS and she will just say not pain one.
T_T
PAIN LO! I hate to grab the pillow hard. And once i hear her call me to take the needle, tears start to flow. I hate it! I can only cry and pray hard that it will end soon.
And so, it ended.
Gosh! And she applied "green grass" oil which is yellow in colour. She applied. PAIN LIKE HELL!
Gosh. And now, my leg is like a big piece of pig leg dipped into some yellow sauce.
Grrr. Hope the swell will go tomorrow. I don't want to wear weird slipper to school.
T_T

Ok! i end here!

I hate you because you made me hate myself.

I hate it. Now i wish you can leave my life silently.

AR~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Do i look like a malay girl??
No no, i am not against that, but then people talk to me in malay and it's embarrassing because i don't understand a word and it's so awkward to keep repeating, i don't understand malay.
T_T
And for some stupid reasons, i became the lao jie of the "clan". Eh~ why am i lao jie when i am like the youngest?! Am i that chao lao(*old looking*) or my thinking too old (*read conservative*).
Although i really like to be called jiejie..but i only like small lil cute kids to call me jiejie and not a bunch of old people calling me lao jie. T_T

The feeling is so old la!
But then but then, ren lao xing bu lao.
I love my age now CAN! Grrr.
Old people out there, i am younge by you all BY ALOT.
= )
lame post.
Heh heh. Shall head to study. And now i know, you mean so much.
You are a MEANIE and that's what i mean.
Petty meanie!
Stupid me !

LOLS!!!!
Remember my blog entry on the sentosa trip?
I mentioned about a group of people playing soccer and then got a guy scolded and hit another guy?
Ok, it couldn't be any grp or organisation that requires discipline. I guess that is the person's dad.
You know why?
Because Dicky was there. (*my poly class friend*). He was there and he said he saw me with a girl(*del*). But he thought it wasn't me. LOLS!
So "qiao" can! Same beach somemore. LOLS!!!
And he didn't wear spects, so cannot see well!
LOL!!

Hahas!

Just a short post before everything.
I went to the library just now and i read a super interesting book by Catherine Lim.
And in there are poems, or just shorting writings that are of different categories.
I remember reading one, and i think this is how it goes.

Love is like Oxygen.
Like elixir , like health potions.
It's lovely and sweet.

But Love is actually biology's tricks to improve the genetic pool.

Another one is...

Men and women.
House and Mane.
Ladies and Gentlemen.
Why is it that males are always addressed first?

Why is Master used to praise? And Mistress to ridicule?
Why are dogs neutral and bitch to insult?
Why do bachelors sounds nice and spinster to degrade?
Why?

Ok, shall head back to study.
Tulus~~

ARGH!
My legs are giving me a hard time!!!!!!!!!!
I went out with sis to eat dinner. And on the way there, my legs are like itching like hell!
And the rain kept splashing water in, MAKING THEM ITCH EVEN MORE!
And i think it's more swollen.
I tried to wear my slippers. I got a hard time wearing the slipper on my left leg. SWOLLEN and RED. And now, there are small red dots and they are bumps lo.
SO DISGUSTING TO TOUCH!

So itchy! Ar!!!
Irritating. But that will not stop me from going sentosa! Lols. Hahas.
But i will really avoid beer. why? Just a bottle of beer yesterday and my belly is bigger!
T_T
Jialat. Lols.

MY LEGS ARE REALLY ITCHY AND PAIN!
Gosh! I hate those lil bumps.
Gosh! Grrr. Ants! RED ANTS! Watch out!
HUMPFS!


Study time!! TUlus~

Well, i said i well blog on it but well, wondering how to go about doing it.
If i blog them down, remember my doggie date.
Lols. Well, it's like the few bloggers we have in the cliques are rather getting bored. So we just gave each silly topics to blog about. But of course, i didn't link them here. Don't ask me why.
Old people's blog can be boring~~ Oh, you know i don't mean your age~
Lols.

Okok. I gave a super dumb one to shuang and thus, i was given a stupider one.
What do i do when i am around the person i like.
They say i tend to do stupid things. So laugh all you want!
Humpf.
Lols.

But i have thinking about this too.
What do i do actually when i am around the person i like..
My eye speaks alot and that is why i seldom look into people's eye. Afraid that people can read me like a book. So perhaps, a clue is my eye. As in, just look at my eye when i am talking to everyone and you can tell the difference.
And perhaps my hands also can tell. Cox i tend to get nervous(*fine, i hear u laughing la jerk*) and i tend to dig my fingernails into my palms. So yeaps.
I think my those actions ain't that obvious also one.
One thing, is mood swings(*i am so honest la*). Very obvious too. shan't elaborate too much.
HiaksHiaks.

Just won myself a date with doggie!

Went to Sl's blog and saw a grp of really cute BUNNIES!
Check the creator's art now.
Super cute!
I got the link for another grp of rolling bunnies~
CLICK HERE

Those red ant bites are giving me a hard time!
So itchy and if you don't scratch it, it gets more and more intense. And if you scratch it, it hurts so much.
Scratch also cannot, don't scratch also cannot.
Grrrr!

Sis is bugging dongs and me to go with her to get KFC/YongTauHu.
My legs are super itchy and that is distracting me from studying! Once there is force or a breeze comes in contact with those bitten areas, they start to itch!
T_T
Itchy! Kill all ants! Omg. That sentosa trip made me abhor ants.
T_T Lols

Be back with a blog entry that well, someone asked me to blog about.

Notice!

Head to this BLOG. And tag often there. The blog is interesting and one in a kind.
Love reading that blog and please make it a point to LINK this sweet lil blogger! Thanks!

I do not know why, but there are so many things running around in my mind.
They are all disorganized thoughts and i hate And blogging can't help me organize them at times.
And i don't bother to charge my phone (something random)
Dang~ My legs are itchy and i wonder what it feels like to dip your whole leg into a pail of red ants.
*Ouch* What a thought~ Pardon me for the perverted thought. Alil sadist i would say.

Woke up at like 11am and the sky is weird today. It so don't feel like 12.10 now. Oh gosh! AM i dreaming? *pinch hands*. Pain. But at times, you can feel pain in your dream too.
Went around reading blogs since i just woke up(will start studying after i am feeling fresh). Some people or rather we are weird beings. And since everyone is weird, it becomes normal. I find it weird when people say/comment on another person being self centered, being selfish and forever thinking about themselves. Nahs. Just find it weird that you need someone to be blamed for your attitude. Never mind. I might start to contradict myself once again. Better stop.

My mind. I have been thinking about two things. And am just so confused. Did i well, mistaken certain things for certain things? Hmmm. Never mind about that.

LEGS are super itchy. Gosh! And legs being itchy is the worst! Cause' it's like it's one of the top most sensitive area and you need to scratch your leg. SUPER weird la the feeling. So i can only move and wriggle my legs. SO ITCHY! Gosh!
And back hurts like hell. Sun burnt. And it's only the back sunburnt. Pain! Lols.

Blog till now..........the weather still so morning-ish. But shall head to study. I think i can study though my mind is on studying at the beach. Lol-ness. Study! Good luck to all!

NOTICE

My phone is abit lagging today. Afraid that it might be lagging for the next few days.
Just recieved a few messages that are dating quite early. If urgent reply is needed, do call me if i didn't reply you. Thank you!
And i hate MoMo! Heh heh. Dont murder me!
LOLS!

Oh yes, remember the red ants i mentioned in my previous SUPER long entry? They bite at this spot which like the area where my veins are. AND IT's like some blueblack feel when i touch it. It's itchy yet feels pain. OUCH! My lucky i got my trusty HONEY OIL with me..
So not that itchy. And other parts of the legs also not itchy liaos.
Hehe! Happiness.

Ohyes. I seriously am going to get a job. Don't call me slacker already o! Humpf.
For frequent trips to KM8 and my kitkat bar...and of course SAVINGs! = )
I need to do some savings already. So, got to work. Heh heh.
Hehe. Should seriously stop blogging too much. Was pretty shock at the previous blog entry.
Take your time people.

p/s: After the ants incident at Sentosa, i am so totally not against SL's attempts to murder ants. Lols. Carry on with your, erm hobby. WOOPS!

p/p/s: I know my previous blog entry is a wee bit long. Hehe... Slowly read bahs

BACKIES. FUN DAY WITH DEL!! WE STUDIED AT SENTOSA OK!!! KM8 is a good place for chill out(*a must read*)

Lols.
Shall start the blog with... Many SORRYs TO DEL!!
Well, let me explain. I woke up with the alarm at 9.00.
I looked at the time and i thought, today no exam, wake up so early for what.
AND AND!! I woke up at 10.53! I remembered i am supposed to meet DEL at 11 at hbf mrt.
Faster went to change and went out to meet her. AND I AM SLOWER THAN HER SHITTING!
=.=
SORRY DEL! But she didn't flare up! = )
I was like late for 1 and a half hour. SORRY AGAIN DEL!

Let me summarise today. IT'S A FUN DAY WITH DEL(*i make it a point to mention her name..read on to know why*). SHE IS FUNNY AND WE ARE LAME! This proves that QUANTITY DON'T NECESSARY BREED QUALITY!
LOLS. Laughed our ass off. Laughed even on the way home and i nearly forgot my stop. And and and.......WE HAD SO MUCH FUN PRODUCING CRABS AND WATCHING FREE GYMNASTIC LESSONS.

Okok. Let's get on to fuller story. Went to take the train to sentosa. Talked on the trip there and i can barely remember the train trip there. Stopped at beach station. SHE HAD A HARD TIME TAPPING THE CARD AND THEREFORE, STUCKED AT THE MACHINE! LOLS! Rushed to the tanjong beach tram and realised... NO MORE SPACE! There's a nice angmoh lady shifting in to give us seats. But only enough for one butt. So decided to wait. Then remembered we forgot to get food. Lucky didn't get onto the tram. Went to Seven Eleven. Bough three box of BeeHoon and Noodles. A vanilla coke and a pack of Ruffles. = )

Then took the tram to Tanjong beach(*we seldom go there...*). We took the first rollrow of the second "cabin". Wrong move. The wind kept blowing leaves and insects INTO OUR FACE! And we were talking and we were wondering where was the exhaust pipe(*which we later saw..it was like giving out GREY GASES......approaching our faces*) . Decided that we couldn't find it and starting talking and laughing like some lunatics on loose. And the tram ride is BUMPY LO! So, don't eat full full and take the tram ride, you might most probably puke all out. Lols. And there was a stop which OBVIOUSLY wasn't TANJONG beach. Del stood up and intended to get down! LOL-NESS!! And she was like, eh no, this is only the fourth stop(*fifth stop is tanjong beach*) and i was like "YOU COUNTED?!". interesting, she counted the number of stops~
Then finally we reached TANJONG BEACH. We were like "WOW". THE BEACH AND THE SEA IS FREAKING NICE! Can see the difference is colour! The sea at tanjong beach is like much nicer and cleaner. Even the beach seems cleaner and nicer. And the sand is super nice! And and and...there is not much people there. Just alot of ang mohs. Heh heh.
Okok.

We decided to find a GOOD spot to study and on our way there, we spotted a CRABBY producer.
Ok, it's a sand mould. *beams* picked it up.. And went to get a spot infront of the sea. Placed our towel on the sand which is just nice for two big butts. = ) Settled down and have our YUMMILICIOUS (*oily! =( ) beehoon and noodle. = ) And we saw this guy scolding and hitting another guy. They seems to be some kinda army thingy or some dono what thing that requires discipline thing. They were playing actually then dono why the supposedly higher authority guy start to scold and hit another guy. So fierce and scary can. But we carried on with our noodles

Feels so cool to have noodles/beehoon on the beach. So cool! Finished food..and started our STUDYING. And we did study ok! We were actually very tempted to sleep. IT was so cooling and the wind is awesome! But cannot! We got to study. So studied. Studied and did a paper or two. =) AND DEL Actually WROTE ON RUFFLES!
T_T

Then decided that we should go take a break and head to the sea. SO COOLING! And headed to do produce our crabby kingdom. Many crab warrior died. = ( Some bruised badly..some lost an arm or both eyes. We went for a dip into the sea. SUPER COOLING! And then went back up to complete our crab kingdom. Many warriors died. Heh heh. And we had a super hard time building and moulding the crabs! At times, the sand just won't come off the mould. And the sand on it's arms and eyes just won't come off at times. We had a great time laughing our ass off on the beach. Heh heh. After our crab moulding attempt which SUCCEEDED. We took photos of them and decided to go to the waters. We got pretty wet. And we didn't bring extra clothes and towel to dry off. So we went back to rest and ate the ruffles. Saw this bar KM8 and we so wanted barcadi. So decided to pack up and head over to this bar. And this bar got SUPER good furnishing. You can see them in the photos del took. Heh heh. Her handy dandy phone! We are underage(*nt 18 according to birthdates*) and were not sure if we were allowed to order alcoholic drinks. But never mind, we sat down. Del went to take the order and yeaps, NO NEED to check IC (*shows: del u dont look young anymore*). Heh heh. DEL drank Jack Daniels with Coke and i drank a bottle (330 ml only) of tiger beer. Tiger beer is super bad if you are dieting. It will create BELLY! But i don't feel like a lao ah pek there because it's rather high class and artty there. Lols..did i just say artty. Heh heh. Then we sat there. Drinking and chatting. TOTALLY HEAVEN. A REST is for a longer journey. = )
Love drinking there. Slow drinking. A drink that can last us long. DEL's Jack Daniels taste and smells nice! Alil cough syrup taste but not choking. Good to try. I wanna have lychee martini the next time. Heh heh. DEL!! KM8 again!!

Oh yes, we laughed alot there too and we were having a great time seeing a group of super CUTE angmohs playing and well, doing gymnastic stunts and "ballet" stuff. Cute! And they laugh at anything and almost everything. SUPERCUTE and jovial. They are rather young. Super cute and funny to hear them. Then we saw many couples there to take wedding photos. Poor bride, have to drag their gown. Tsktsk. Then we just lay then. And as USUAl, del did funny things. So had a HARD time laughing! LOLS! And i tell you TANJONG BEACH GOT A GREAT SCENERY! And today's SUN is AWESOME! GREATNESS. And the sun at around 4plus 5 is SUPER good! SUPER GOOD. GOODNESS! Got a lil tan. Heh heh. And drinking on the beach, sitting/lying down and seeing people play and have fun is great! And there was a group of rowdy guys. Hmmms, shall not go into that part. I WANT KM8!! I WANT KM8!! Next time, call me go Sentosa, and want to go beach, I WILL ONLY HEAD TO TANJONG BEACH. Heh heh.
Lols.

After that, at around6 plus, we decided to walk on. = ) Walked around and i tell you, i can hardly remember what we did. Super alot of things to blog about! We walked to Siloso first. And we laughed like crazy nuts. We took pics on the stones/rock and trust me, there was a leg lookalike thing under the rock that del stood on. Lols. And we carried on walking. Then walked to a beach with the famous bridge one. And went over to a smaller island with the tower to see things. Like a view balcony or something like that. There was this, telescope thingy? And it needs you to put one dollar in before you can use it. And the scenery there was like so so nice! And i am like so enthusiastic about it. I was like, i want to try this, never try before then i threw in MY ONE DOLLAR. Then del was like, you really want to try? then i excitedly tiptoe-ed. PITCH DARKNESS. IT ATE MY ONE DOLLAR COIN! I kept looking and tried to make it work. IT DIDN'T! IT ATE MY ONE DOLLAR COIN!!! And we laughed till we nearly rolled! LOL-NESS!!!!!
Then i climbed up and took a pic. Coolness. Lols. Then walked back. The bridge is freaky. Then we spotted a peacock at the Siloso beach entrance. Del went to take a pic of it. And guess what, it started to make LOUD LOW sounds that sounds like it's saying : "peacock". Just that it's more lazy and more like " peaoh kouug". And we started to walk away. Then walked the beach. It's rather dark already and stuff. Then we walked to another place. Del took a GREAT pic of the palm trees there. SUPER NICE!! Heh heh. Then we spotted a white peacock. SUPER NICE! And yeaps, it made a weird sound too. LOL!

Then carried on walking. By then, the sun is more or less down. So rather dark. And we walked to this place with very good lighting. So, we were wondering, what will it be like to take a pic with the light shining up to our face. And we were like happily wanting to know the results. Then THEN...del went "oh no".. and we looked down on our legs. INVADED WITH RED ANTS! And we like.....sweeping our legs.. AND JUMPING WHILE looking for water. Poor del, she went to a place that shoots water, but not shooting water when she went there. I jumped right into a mini pond there. FREAKING PAIN AND ITCHY AT THE SAME TIME. But we were laughing at our reaction. FREAKING FUNNY! We are like kids! STOP. LOOK. JUMP. And jumping into water like it's gonna help. (*i am taking a long time to blog...time check :12.30am*) Lols! We were like laughing at our reaction. If you are there, you might most probably laugh till you drop. JUMPING like some mad things in cartoons.. LOL-NESS.

Then we decided to walk in another mini pond. DEL's BOTH SHOE FELL INTO THE POND WHEN SHE WANNA GOT UP. LOLS! First time, she went to take back her shoe and then, another side fell. LOL la! Then the shoe under a bridge which is super low. So she had to look for her shoe and placed her hands in to find it. LOL-ness. Laughing like some mad girl. And guess what, i am like wanting to pee so much! And laughing, hard to control my bladder. T_T pathetic. LOLS! But it's funny! Then went to the toilet. Then went out and walked past this very dark place.SO MANY FLYING INSECTS! YUCKS. Then we saw another peacock. Del wanted to take it's pic. AND IT STARTED TO make those LOW LOUD sounds. We walked back. Then waited for it to move away. NO! It walked after us and we started to run away. LOL la.
Then we went to this animal cage. Noisy but cannot really see birds. Got two red parrots. Heh heh.

Then walked along the road. Heard those low loud sounds and we started to run! We didn't even see if there's peacock. We heard, we run. LOLS! Really is FEAR. Forget Everything And Run. Then took pics under the lamppost. Heh heh. Then i was taking the pic for del and we heard it! Faster take, and we RUN! LOL-ness. Then we referred to the map and walked to the beach station. THEN WE HEARD THE LOW LOUD SOUND again and we ran another distance. Lols. I can imagine some human imitating the sound and we just run! LOL-ness.

Then we boarded the MRT back. We practically were cleaning up in the train. LOLS!! HEh heh. Then reached vivo. SO COLD! We walked around, looking for the James Power station. Heh heh. Then went to the pet shop. Talked and settled some stuff. Total sweetness. Heh heh.
THERE ARE THREE MINI schnauzers. OH YES...We got a shocked by this BEAR lookalike dog! CUTE LA! Then then....went off and took the train home. Talked and remember stupid event and LAUGHED like mad on the train. Nearly forgot to get down at DG. LOLS!
And head back home. TIRED-nESS!!

But had a FUN day with DEL! Lols. PEOPLE! Remember, when you talk to del, start your sentence with DEL first! REMEMBER!! Oh yes, we were talking and all of a sudden she called me by Michelle. AND I AM LIKE...JAWS DROPPED + SHOCKED. I think, among the friends in poly, only junejune call me Michelle bahs. The rest is call me maike, nut, mitch, nuatty, and so on so on. And so, it's weird to hear them calling me Michelle already. Weird. LOLS! Laughed again. DEL! Remember everyone....wanna talk to her? CALL HER NAME in every sentence. Heh heh. i hope she dont murder me. LOLS!

HAHAS! TOTALLY FUN day out! LOLS! Usually, two person go sentosa, like abit weird. Or rather, just a normal day. Might be boring and with too much time on hand. BUT NO! We had so much fun. So....Quantity does not breed quality one. LOLS! Anyone wanna head to sentosa? Get me and del and we will bring u around. HEH HEH. Love that place. DEL is planning another time to go sentosa. HANDS UP FOR KM8 ! LOLS! hahas! I love that place. KM8 also very good for sun tanning. And it's also a great place for people to lie down and talk and drink and eat finger food. Saw a cool finger food. Breaded mushrooms. Sounds yummy lo. YUMMS. HAHA!!
Cool! Love it!!
That place is great! Not many people there too. Got great hunks there too. Hahas! oh yes...there's an open space spa there too! BUT BUT BUT.. .only for ladies and couples only. So if you are a single male, TOO BAD. HAHAS!!

Time check" 1.07am
Better end. Good luck with all having 1010. AND ..i am so afraid i am missing out details for the entry today BECOX I SO LOVE THE DAY OUT WITH DEL TODAY!! LOLS.
She is my half boiled egg...u know why? She is good company for outdoor activities and indoor activities(*Shopping*). Hehe. LOLS!
Better end it first. Pics will be up soon. We got a SUPER sexy and cool photo! HEHE! THANKS DEL AND SORRY ABOUT THE LATE MEET UP!

I AM FREAKING SLEEPY NOW!
REALLY!!
Gosh!
I need and want to sleep!
And to my dear girl out there, you don't need a guy to prove your worth.
= )
You are our sweetheart.
=)
When am i so nice? Because of dream #1!
Heh heh.
= )

Tired!

Just finished watching HanaKimi epi 13.
= )
I LOVE THAT SHOW LA.
Tomorrow going out to study with del.
A different studying experience i tell you.
Lols.
Tired and drained off energy.
Shall head to sleep?
I think so.

BACK!!

MATHS ENDED AND THAT IS GOOD NEWS!
Hmmmms.
Don't want to blog about it.
Everything seems blurry and like a dream to me.
You know, i was doing the paper and halfway, i suddenly thought of something.
I asked myself if i am dreaming and if i am dreaming, i will be late for my maths paper if i wake up.
And once again, the eye blinking syndrome came back.
But hmmms, just gave up blinking and head back to maths.

Initial plans was to go sentosa but was feeling SUPER tired and with a throbbing headache.
Ran after junejune and guess what, both of us......
Went to lavender without knowing why.
Went to ICA building with wk and sl.
And junejune and i am like huh?
Abit blurry.

And later lunch at some coffee shop/market.
Ate duckie and chickie.
Didn't eat much.
Having gastric problems, so better refrain from eating too much outside.
T_T

Had the whole day without food.
Then after that we, also dono why went to watch movies.
It's sucha HUH day today.
Watched Norbit. Del came to meet us at bishan.
Norbit is a funny show, wanted to laugh but then, my throat totally dampens my mood.
BUT it's funny. So FUNNY!
LOLS.
Very cute.
Then after that, went to bishan park without knowing why.
Then picked "xiang si dou" and then, walked to parts of the park that i seldom/didn't walk to.,
I love picking xiang si dou. Hehe.
Then i remember my kindergarten days. I used to have this friend. And we are quite close and his mum and my mee are friends too, so we would see each other after school. And because there is a big field outside, we will run around and picking those pink flowers on the field.
Lols. Cute-ness can.

After that, went to wk's hse for a short mj lesson.
Heehee.
His bearbear couple is cute. Heh heh.
I am suddenly hooked onto mj.
Tsktsk. But i will never gamble on mj. Heh heh.

Then head home. Slept on the bus.
Wanted to buy sushi(*craving for wasabi*) but the shop closed!
So headed to YoShi. HEHE!
YUmmy!!!
But gastric hurts still.
T_T
Oh yes, if you see me on the streets and if i looked at you and yet didn't call or smile to you, PLEASE SHOUT at me.
I got the third complaint just within these two days.
Heh heh. I don't wear spects out and i can be not too alert at times. =)
Then walked to take the bus home.
I FELL!!
Ok, not fell, lost my balance and hit my head onto the pole.
T_T And it's quite loud. So is my head hollow?
PAIN!!

Pathetic.
So my day ended on a dreamy tone.
At times, i am just afraid that i can't differentiate between dream and reality. Because i know i am dreaming in my dream.
So it's abit freaky.
And my dreams all feel too real.
tsktsk.

Oh yes, saw lion dance today.
And suddenly, i remember the few things i am SUPER afraid when i was younger and for that, i got laughed at!
T_T
I am afraid of the garang guni man. SUPER AFRAID.
When i hear him coming(*the thing he pushes*), i will run and hide.
And i am also afraid of the tongtongqiang(*lion dance*). When i hear the beating of the beat and stuff, i will run and hide in the room.
Another thing which i love now, i am afraid of it when i was younger.
FIREWORKS!
I remember there was once dee let me sit on his shoulder and there's fireworks.
I CRIED LIKE HELL and wanted to go away from it. Now i know why i was so afraid of it. I thought got war, that is why i scared.
T_T
Another thing is those ladies that cover themselves up. For religious purposes. Then i didn't know. So i am like so afraid of them. But now i know and understand.
Those are the four things that i was afraid of when i was young. But now, i fear none of them. Ok, i am still a lil (*JUST A LITTLE*) afraid of the garang guni man. LOL.
SULA!

But then, things that i am not afraid when i was younger, I NOW AM AFRAID.
I used to LOVE roller coaster and the solero shots(*suicide experience*) that machine in genting.
I love ROLLER COASTER that overturns and stuff like that.
But now, I AM AFRAID OF THEM.
Tsktsk. As we get older, we just start to get afraid of them.

Oh yes, went to Bishan J8 and i bought a necklace. Love it! It got a unique design on it. A heart on a star. I buy necklaces or rings with a meaning with them.
=)
I love this new necklace! Heh heh.
Then we went to another shop.
THEY SELL VERY NICE RINGS and they got this kitkat lookalike necklace.
NICE. My new aim is that kitkat lookalike necklace. $118.
Things i like, i will buy them with my own $$.
It's super nice. And i don't understand why so many people say that girls will want their guy to get things that they like for them. At least junejune and i don't feel so.
Heh heh.
Things we like, we get for ourselves. I heard so many stories of jerks that want back stuff they bought after they broke up. -.-
So, we want what, we need to get them ourselves.
= )
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Something random. Read Greentea's blog and i read her lastest entry on copycats.
Hmmms. She is not the first one that i know talking about such stuff. Copycats and stuff. But i am rather surprised actually. Because i used to have such thinking when i was younger. Lv Cha, don't take what i said to heart, just hmmm, blogging what i felt.
I've heard people talking about another person copying their dressing, copying the way they talk and copying another person's everything.
But at times, it isn't the person's fault too. At times, it's influenced. It's just as times goes by, the person just automatically take after that person. It's like being with someone long, you will start to look like the person at some angles.
And if that person is not close to you and you find that the person is copying your dressing. It can be abit weird to say that. Because, our dressing are mostly influenced by celebs and of course magazines or online. So, if that person take after you, it's because you take after another.
It's hard to see someone dressing uniquely in Singapore because we are all people that are super good at judging people, be it good or bad. Well, like i have said, if our fashion culture is like japan's. *winks*
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Another very random part.
Read greentea's blog entry on her dream to be a superstar. I remember her first singing competition and stuff. And i am like hmmms, she got a dream, she got something she want to works towards too.
And i start to think of what i am working towards to. NOTHING.
For a moment, 17years of my life flashed passed me. Nothing?
Wouldn't i be wasting every minute and every second of my life???
I might as well donate all my organs to people who need them more than me and let them fulfill their dream right.
BUT NOW NO!!! I don't think so le!
I got a dream ok! I got something i want to work towards!
One of them, i shall not say. Another one is....if i got the ability after my diploma, i will further study on MATHEMATICS! Yeaps. You heard me right.
= )
I will try.
Heh heh.
And before i came into conclusion for both my dreams, i felt that everything was so boring. Life is eating, smiling, sleeping, shitting, studying, laughing, walking and stuff like that. And those are just norm.

I felt sick of the jealousy i felt. I felt sick of the short lived happiness. I felt sick being envious. I felt sick of being different. I felt sick of feeling embarrassed. I felt sick of the word attraction. I felt sick of sadness. I felt sick of all the pretends. I felt sick normalcy to judgment. I felt sick of living each day without knowing what is going on. I felt sick of smiling and know it's not from the bottom of my heart. I felt sick of keeping the words in my heart and not letting the one know. I felt sick of saying stupid things. I felt sick of me not being able to be sensitive to people's feelings. I felt sick of being slow to catch what people want me to know.

BUT THEN BUT THEN. Perhaps that is history already. Because of my two dreams. Two things that i want to accomplish.
=)
Lols.
Heh heh. Shall study tomorrow. 1010. MY LAST PAPER! And i didn't know it's on friday.
T_T Pathetic.
But never mind, i shall head to study tomorrow.
I told you, Michelle can never stay down for too long. = )
Think on the bright side? It's too glaring.

TELL ME!
Or ya gonna see a roasted nut!

Lols.
I think i am in love.
Totally in love.
With who? With doggie!
Lols.
I asked Mr Nut(*woops*) to record doggie's bark and send to me thru msn.
But doggie didn't bark.
T_T

Lols.
It's either i am really in love with doggie, or the maths totally made me mad.
Woohuhu.
Wooohoohoo.

Maths, more or less, i tried my best to squeeze everything into the small lil memory space of mine.
= )
I am so afraid of doing things alone before.
Like going for a hair cut. Even ordering food.
I will just freak out.
So, the change in me that i suddenly noticed?
I dared to order food. I dare to do things alone.
Wooohoo.
I only don't dare to stay home alone late at night.

Lols.
Shall sleep at latest 11pm.
Finish up all the nitsy bitsy stuff and yoohoo, of to sleep.
Good luck everyone! Good luck to me!
= )
Am coughing like a mad lady now.
Tragic.
Heh heh.
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It's weird.
You how i hate to be aware of unhappy and negative stuff that i will "pretend" not to know them right.
But then, i will just find the need to know the truth no matter what.
And just pray hard that i can pretend to forget.
So, i am really digging my own grave or problems right.
Yeaps.
So contradicting.
I just hate the feeling of not being aware of the truth. Tsktsk.
One thing i need to change.
But it's good to want to know the truth right.
Tsktsk. Contradicting.
Ar!
Cut the crap. Shall be back with a post more worthy of reading after MATHS!
Tulus!

I am heading to sentosa tomorrow, so anyone wanna go, just gimme a buzz.
So badly need to go somewhere beach-y to spend my day tomorrow. Tues/Wed then i start studying.

T_T Initial plan today was to date doggie out(*doggie only*) tomorrow.
But doggie ain't free tomorrow.
T_T
Promised me ecp.
My sorethroat is...almost gone already.
T_T

Maths.
Seems prepared yet seems to be unprepared.
grrr.
Indeed a screwed nut.
How suitable.
Fine, shall stop calling myself nutelle from now till tomorrow.
Call me screwed nut from now till tomorrow then(*after maths paper*).
AR!!
Forgot my seat number!

At the rate i am going, tonight no need to sleep.
To people out there, give me a morning call at 6.30 tomorrow.
Thanks.
Am gonna need it badly.
Don't attempt to scream into the phone because i won't go back to sleep(*you know who i am referring to... *winks*).
Totally lost about application problems.
And it's raining heavily outside.
T_T
just like my heart.
All thanks to maths.
T_T

Totally a screwed nut. Although a screwed bolt sounds nicer.
Never mind about that.
What's all the application problem about! So not clear.
GOSH.

Screw those people who came up with all the maths formulas and stuff.
ALL THANKS to your intelliegent brain that stupid people like need to struggle through maths.
Fine, i am not stupid, just handicap in maths.
T_T
Gosh!
Tulus~
Off to maths now.
First time i am not seeking help like before.
Let see how it goes.
Because so many things have proven to me that, i just can't rely on others.
Pathetic but i have learnt it.
I have a few great pals, and they taught me to not rely on others.
Hearing less of Michelle complaining about stuff?
All thanks to them, they enlighten me.
LOLS!
Yeaps.
And it feels much better to rely on myself for some stuff.
= 0

CUT THE CRAP.
Head back to maths. I am getting restless now.
T_T

SAVE ME.
Ulcer's giving me a bad time.
Sore throat is giving me an itchy throat which results in coughs.
Tend to get nervous when doing maths and then, i will start to bite my ulcer.
Ouch!

Paper isn't that easy afterall.
I am still trying.
Trying till the last minute.
Hope i can wake up tomorrow and no nightmares please.
I will not go to sleep on an empty stomach anymore.
Indeed it's true, going to sleep on an empty stomach will have nightmares.
T_T
Shall head back to maths now.
I so feel like sleeping.
BUT CANNOT!
Can't wait to end the paper.
That is like 70% load of my mind!
Just pray hard that i won't forget anything on 1010.
Yeaps.

After so long, you decided to dig the reason again. The reasons are clear. I question your motive for them. The main reason was always trust. At least to me. Since it isn't there, then just step back. Perhaps, it's time to stop pushing the blame and get on. Not that you are stuck here forever. I see you happy with her. And she is fine with you controlling. So what's wrong? Perhaps, it's time to get out of my life. I find it a waste of time to be talking about the problems of before since feelings faded. No more will i waste my time explaining. Explanations are useless

How i wish upon a star that tomorrow's maths paper will be as easy as the last test paper on the past year exam booklet.
PLEASE!
I am beginning to LOVE maths.
So, please!
Gosh!
Kiakia.
KIAKIA.
Been doing some light/leavy revision and it seems it seems...
It's progressing ok.
The 90marks am still in mind making my day brighter than usual.


I know it's my wishful thinking.
But i just want to be beside for as long as i can.

LOL.
We were talking about the BIG(*weighty*) issue.
And i know how i managed to lose the erm, disgusting kgs of me when i was in pri6, sec1 and sec2.
The food that my ahma(*paternal side*) cooked and academic.
Lols!
And it's true!
The food there works far better than slimming centres.
My sis and i lost weight ALL thanks to the food. Lols!
When we shift back to yishun, neighbour said we slimmed down already .
LOLS!
Anyone wanna slim down? Tell me, i know how to cook those stuff and provide the conducive environment for you.
= )

Now i understand why people who think alot (*too much*) are slimmer.
SO EASY HUNGRY after all the thinking.
Now i know that i haven't use my brain for a long time.
Last night, think till i hungry. So sleep, that's why will have nightmare(*read er mong*).

Now, after a few hours, I AM HUNGRY again.
Mee's not home with lunch.
ARG!
Hungry.
Making my stomach upset.

So went down with sis to get milo nuggets.
Energy providers. Milo, the sports food.
Crap.
Feeling better, but it won't last!
*screams*

Sis say i gone nuts.
All thanks to maths.
Of cox! No time to waste!
And you know, dong's voice can be a lil irritating when you are thinking hard.
T_T
lols!
Maths drive me mad.
Can't believe those mad psycho or whatever u call them...those people who actually major in maths!
INCREDIBLE.
I salute them!
Gosh!

The problem is, i love maths, yet i hate it!
GOSH!
Totally insane


p/s: i want twenty packets worth of seaweed. Practise maths till i can't get the sums right~

HAPPINESS!!!
Decided to do the equiz 3 which i left earlier on.
The first time i did it, it was 40 marks.
I am not sure if the marks are already recorded, but i just did it anyway.
And the results now?
second try was 60 and last try was 90!!
*screams*
Maths may be easy for u but it's so not easy for me.
And i did it all on my own !
Screams!
Happiness!
Hahas.

I get excited over the smallest thing.
Great.
A good start in the morning.
Way to go!
Let's hope this goes on.
= )
I will be the happiest girl on earth.

Before i get on the study (*which i doubt i can finish today*), i just wanna crap a lil here first.
Last night sleep was horrible.
Had an awful nightmare filled with scenes of child abuse.
Gosh! They feel so real.
Total nightmare. And woke up at 7.23am sharp.
Totally woke up with a jolt. Looked at the time and immediately woke up. Thought i was late for maths paper. Walked out, intending to message junejune that i will be late.
After a few seconds, realised it's sunday.
Returned back to bed with the heart pumping hard.
Tried for an hour to sleep. Slept and once again, another dream.
I dreamt that i told everyone about my dream about child abuse stuff.
And they all said i am crazy. And out of nowhere, i was at the hotel with sis and everyone.
Went to get breakfast and talked to a small lil cute boy.
Woke up.

I am feeling so sleepy and well, traumatize by the child abuse thing.
It's not anything. But all i can remember vividly is the using of the clothes iron to scald me.
Ar!
Get it off my mind!
Maths totally am able to drive me up the wall.
Gosh.
Ok, cut the crap and head back to maths.
Wish my luck people, because i really need it.

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See me on monday? See me bruised with numbers.
Argh!
But somehow, i am loving maths.
Call this the love-hate relationship.
Argh!

AR!!!
*SCREAMS*
Oh my gosh!
I thought my integration thingy is getting better but then but then............
AR!
I realised...i mixed up differentiation and integration.
=.=
Now i cannot get the denominators right.
OMG!
Freakingly irritated.
T_T
Michelle, jiayou.

Gosh! GOSH!

Integration...
There seems to be some progress.
Let's hope this continues.

I am only in the study mode at night.
Wish me luck.
And hope that there's no mistakes in the answers given.
tulu~~

Lemondrop kisses~~

Pardon the title, just thought of this word.
Heeh heeh.
Studying maths?
I am, but the pathetic thing is, there's no progress yet.
Sighs~

Maths. Managed to pull through last semester, but this time.
gosh.
Even with luck also no use. Miracle needed more like it.
Who can be this miracle?
Never mind. I trust that i can (*i think*) manage the paper.
Wish me luck.

I feel so oily now.
Ok, "oily-er" than before.
Yucks!
Meemee bought back "mee-pok" (*flat noodles*) soup and the soup is like OILY!
Yucks.
Feel like draining myself now.

Throat ain't any better. flu and cough is here to visit me.
With a throbbing headache and backaches too.
Suay-ness is here. But goodie luck will return to me on Monday!
= )

They say, when you love someone, you got to take a step back at times.
And this step happens to be the hardest to take.

Woke up freaking early today.
But forced myself to sleep till 11.
Gotta start Maths already.
The irritating thing is.....i understand the solution, but when i do another similar question, i totally blank out.
Stupidity.
ar!

Never mind. Just do what i can.
= )
Wish me luck!


i want you to know

Just did something.
As i am rather interested in the way i present pictures, i got a site to keep them.
So head there when you are free.
Munchyelle.piczo.com

Was doing the usuals and suddenly a question pop into my mind.
What is your definition of a good person?
I am a lil confused.
Let's picture this...
A person, he is evil and nasty by nature but, on the outside, he appears nice, he don't backstab people, he don't bad mouth people, he don't create conflicts. But in his heart, he curse and well, curse at those that lead happy lifes. As long as someone is happier than he is, he curse them.
But then but then, he don't do anything evil.
So is this person considered good?

Well, so many people are out seeking for a good person. But what is the definition of good?
A good guy. A good girl. What are the definitions.
We really care about what's on the outside? You give me sweets, you are nice.
You don't bad mouth me, you are nice. But what really is that person thinking?
I realised, i only look for things that are impossible. I want to know what the person think, but it's near impossible. Someone won't take his heart out and tell you everything. Even i don't do that.
Everyone got their own lil personal secrets that remain hidden in them forever. But then, the thought of being with someone that hmmms, harbours negative comments about yourself is abit too freaky right. But then, that is life? I don't know. So many times i look around, i hear friends complaining about friends. I hear quarrels and i hear arguments. I mean, those are normal and of course, there are heart warming stories of friends too. And i know argument cannot be avoided and conflicts cannot be avoided since we are all different individuals. When i hear people speak when they are angry, or when they are quarreling, i get abit shocked. Words that hurt each other. Words spoken out of anger most of the time are untrue? Maybe, but the hurt is already done right?

Hmms, I don't know and i can't complete and organize my thoughts now. They tend to be running around, contradicting each other. But just let me blog them down, although they won't flow smoothly.
Do you know, i used to be amazed with people writing : Bestest friends, good friends best friends and stuff like that. Categorizing even best friends. And i find it weird. What is the definition of friends? Why are there best. good, bestest friends? How do i say. It's like saying good. Goodest (*if there is such a word*) good. And stuff like that. Rating friends? And i remember seeing a young girl writing this : hated friends. And i went totally *jaws dropped*. Hated friends? They don't link right?! How can you hate your friend. If you hate that person, then that person is considered as friends? Hmmms. I wonder.
Now, i seldom say bestest friends and stuff like that. How fake i ask myself.
At times, i would want to know less things. I totally agree that knowing lesser, you will be happier.
Let's picture this... A tells you something bad about B. But B doesn't know A talked negative things about B. Then you go out with A and B together. A treats B like A didn't tell you anything negative about B. When such things happen, i feel totally puzzled and fake. I mean, survival skills, make more friends than enemy right? But then, it's still totally fake. Ok fine, you gonna start arguing with me that everyone in this world is fake and this is survival skills.
So, i told you, the lesser i know, the less weird i feel.

It just feels kinda weird. I hop by many people's blog and so many times, i read people's entry on friends friends and friends. And it's problems.
So relationships gives the most problem. So i started to picture the world without relationships and that will most probably mean no feelings. There will be less conflicts maybe. But there will be no joy in living right?

What makes a secret admirer happy? Sadness. Sounds weird that i gave this answer. If there is no sadness, there wont be happiness.
What makes the secret admirer sad? Happiness. If there is no happiness, there won't be sadness. It's sadness that brings out happiness.
How true. So, shall we start to embrace sadness?
Lols. I sound so..Hmmms...weird.
nahs. just typing what comes into mind.
I just sucks at organising and placing thoughts into colourful words.
No wonder i sucks at descriptive essay.

Fine, i am wasting too much time here. Got to head to well, some light warm up for maths before heading to sleep.
Wish me luck people. And get well soon.

Didn't take a pic of doggie and am still unhappy(*lols!*) over it.
So went online and search like some lunatic for doggie's lookalike. AND FINALLY I FOUND ONE! Although doggie seems abit smaller and not that black.
But doggie is as obedient as that.
*ahchooww* (*excuse me*)
I will take pics of doggie next week! She is cute!
But the Schnauzer baby here is also very cute right!



My eyes are closing but i want to do some light revision for maths first.
So i think i badly need to log offline. Anything, buzz my phone or leave a message at the tag and i will get back to you when i come online. Thankies!

I am so tired of pretending i don't care.
I know i got to pretend i don't care.
Someone that made my day and someone that ruin my day.
Someone that i hate to care.
When will you walk away from my life silently.
But life's too short to care. I just want to be happy with you around.

Guess what, weijian brought the lil doggy over just now!
*screams*
But cannot come into my house so doggie stood outside my house. T_T
The dog's name? I call it doggie.
Hahas!
But i stood like 2metres away from doggie.
Fur can make sickness worst~ Will meh?!
But doggie barked at me today! Lols! Doggie seldom bark at me one.
T_T
But less than half an hour, and doggie is gone.
Going to her ahma house i think.
Doggie! I will get well soon and see you!
= )
So nice of doggie to visit me.

I am still sick and it's getting worst with FLU coming for a visit!
Dang~
Trust me, tomorrow, fever will also come pay me a visit.
Grrrr!
I need to help my immune system already.
Sore throat sore throat sore throat.
Ok, it's all in the mind. I am not having sore throat and i am FINE~

I want next week to come faster!
If i am well next week, i will be going to zoo (*i hope*) and to ECP with doggie!
But i got to be well, i won't want to pass my virus to doggie. Hehes!
Doggie is one really mild tempered and obedient doggie.
I wanna go ECP with doggie! Hahas! I don't care about weijian , xd and the gang. I just want doggie.
Hahas! Call this zhong se qing you. Doggie > People. No la no la. Kidding kidding.
= )
Okok, but there's always the MATHS! Arrrr. Think le also heartache. Sick + Math = Siansation.
Never mind, got happy things...then sickness will get better.
Doggie doggie doggie! Hiaks.
Think le also excited. Hiaks!

Okok. Back to teevee and MATHS! Good luck to me!
And good luck to all studying!
Really, not that you peeps need luck to pass the paper.
Hahas!
I realised i have been crapping alot recently. =X
Pardon me.
Hehes.
Okok.
Tulus people!
And to those sick too, GET WELL SOON!!!

You fell in love with the wrong person.
Define wrong for me. How is it possible to fall in love with the WRONG person.
I never understand.
So, perhaps, stop fretting over the Wrong person because life's too short for that.
= )

THROAT IS KILLING ME!
What comes with a sore throat? BODY ACHES.
I even got difficulty swallowing my saliva. Can't even talk.
I hate sore throat but i always get them.
T_T
Ar!!
I want it to recover by Sunday!
Can't even sleep in peace!
T_T
Pathetic. Totally ruin my weekends.

Omg!
See how long i have been complaining about my sore throat?
GOSH! Totally ruin all the fun.
Actually wanted to meet weijian go see his dog..but sick.
Cannot go.
His doggie very cute and very smart one lo!
But he say i sick cannot go.
T_T
Grrrr...

And i am feeling nauseous now. Now i understand how that feels.
Maths am bullying me! Gosh~
When i am sick, everything bullies me.
Gosh~
Fight sore throat! Drink plenty of water and eat plenty of cornflakes fruits!

My nth post of the day.

LISTEN!
Finally found this song.
Once upon a december. First heard this song in the show Anastasia.
I love this song and this show.
Hehes.
Enjoy~~
Maths is totally killing me.
Argh~~~~
A battle with maths and the result? A bruised Michelle.
Lols. Exaggerating.

MATHS!
gosh!
I am so lost! Grrrrr.
Irritating Maths! Grrrrr.
A moment ago, i understand what i am doing, then....i go back to do that same question and i DON'T KNOW HOW TO DO!
+.+
AR!!
Maths maths maths!
I love maths, why can't it love me?

H-E-A-D-A-C-H-E

Yeaps.
Suffering a super bad headache.
I decided i will stop doing things i..hmmms, don't think is right.
Oh yes, stop means stop.
I decided that i need to cultivate some kou de.
Hehes.

What happened?
Something totally dumb and well, funny~
Was minding my OWN business when suddenly one kuku person nudged me (*msn~*).
Replied in the usual way meaning friendly, nice, sweet and NICE lo~(*i know i know. Hahas*)
And suddenly, out of nowhere, i got scolded!
And for a stupid reason somemore~
Of course, being the clever girl, i know this is kidding one lo~
Diaos~ I am smarter le!
Old tricks no more effect on me one~ Then..then...
Lazy to carry on. Fell for the stupid thing and thank god! I got some kou de!
Lols!

So, kou de..very important.
I don't know what is that called in English.
Hehes. So yeaps, New Year, new resolution.
Cultivate Kou De.
That one can liaos.
= )
Hehes
Time to study! Teevee != distractions.
Kerstin != distraction.
Food != distraction (*sorethroat~ no appetite le!! *)
So, books!! here i come~~

Additional Movies!

Remember those movies i wanna watch?
I forgot to add this in!!

HANNIBAL RISING

Rating	NC16
Consumer Advice	Violence
Genre	Drama
Main Cast	Gaspard Ulliel, Rhys Ifans, Gong Li
Director	Peter Webber
Release Date	1 March 2007
Running Time	117 minutes

HANNIBAL RISING marks the first time in the award-winning series that best selling author Thomas Harris ("Red Dragon," "Silence of the Lambs") writes the screenplay – reaching back to explore the origins of Lecter’s rage, terror and savagery.

The story begins in Eastern Europe at the desperate end of World War II. For many it was no longer a conflict of nations but one of individual survival – at any cost. A young Hannibal watches from only steps away as his parents violently die, leaving his cherished young sister in his care. This horrific moment will soon pale in comparison to the atrocities he is forced to witness, changing him forever.

Alone and without any means of support, he is forced to live in a Soviet orphanage that once served as his family’s beloved home. He flees to Paris to find his uncle has died but his beautiful and mysterious Japanese widow, Lady Murasaki (Gong Li) welcomes him. Even her kindness and love cannot soothe the nightmares and sorrows that plague him. Showing a cunning aptitude for science he is accepted into medical school, which serves to hone his skills and provide the tools to exact justice on the war criminals that haunt him day and night. This quest will ignite an insatiable lust within a serial killer who was not born, but made.

Screwed Nut~(sounds weird....)

Yeaps. I saw this "Screwed Nut"~~ float pass me just after i handed in my paper.
Lols. I know i got like CARELESS MISTAKES everywhere.
Once again.
*bang walls*
But then, it's like too late and pointless to grumble right?
yeaps.
I can see myself with an F grade now. Arg!
No! I won't get a F! Got to believe in myself.
I believe that i believe in myself(*how convincing~*).

After the paper, to kfc to lunch.
Sorethroat and still wanna eat kfc?
Never mind. Thought my immune system is like before.
I AM SO WRONG! Took the bus home, took a nap, and woke up with a really really bad sore throat!
T_T
I hate to sleep when i am sick. Will wake up feeling terrible.
Oh yes, once again, i overslept in the bus and ended back at the interchange.
T_T
Waste my $$ again!
T_T Pathetic.

Feeling super sleepy now, but cannot sleep.
Or rather, don't dare to sleep. Later wake up feeling worst.
T_T Now the question is....
To take medicine or not to take?
Pathetic~~

Oh yes, thanks ivan for the morning call~ Lols! No faith in me ar! Lols! Thanks anyways!
= )

Didn't knew i am 19 liaos.
hahas.
that is by the lunar calendar.
Just DIY dye my hair. Did it out of no reason once again.
Chose a colour near to black. Hahas~

I think i am going to brush up on my Chinese Language. Went to the temple to pray and i need meemee. I can't understand what they were saying and there's like so many procedures.
Lols.
I am going to learn chinese all over again!

1009. As time gets nearer, i am getting worried.
No fear michelle!
Jiayou!

BACK!!

Back from praying.
And i tell you, I AM SULA!
Always say i not pantang, never mind, but then, i will scared if never pray~
SULA!
Lols.
This year, snake really must pray.
Dui Cong means serious!
Then i read the paper, they wrote, if no sick, then financial problem.
WOAH.
Like that, of course must pray!
So went to pray at Sembawang.
Taking the bus there, passed by sembawang sec.
MEMORIES float pass.
Sun Plaza~ Memories float pass.
Today...is filled with memories.
Oh yes, when i took the bus out, i met my pri sch friend.
Talked about primary sch mates.
some people's name i really HaveNoIdea!
Lols. She told me about jane sim. She told me she left for America for one or two years then came back and study private school. AMERICA leh~
But she is more of pai kia. She used to be our good friend in pri 5 i think. We used to be of the same clique. How time flies.
lols.

Oh yes, the praying part. I very scared. Rituals stuff used to frightened me out. And it started to rain. When it rains and i am outside, i get afraid~
T_T
But the ritual is fast and soon i am home liaos.

Shall finish up my revision and head to rest! Wooofs.


GOOD LUCK TO EVERYONE!!!!

Temple!!

Heading to pray.
Because snake clashes with the Lord Duke.
Cong Tai Sui in chinese i think.
Meemee say snake clash quite serious this year so must go pray.
So i shall set off and also pray for my exams.
= )
Tulus~~
So all snake babies, remember to go pray.
Better safe than sorry.
hehes!
I sound like some kuku old lady.

Done part of the paper.
I have been doing my paper and watching teebee(*read teevee*) at the same time.
Distractions everywhere!
Turn left, teebee, turn right, kerstin.
And i just don't want to face the paper. Lols.
And it's always the same question that i don't know how to do.
Arg!!
Never mind, shall do the last paper and get on with maths.

Tomorrow's paper is at 8.30 so that means i got to wake up 6.45.
AR!!
This time, don't need morning calls.
I can wake up on my own.
= )
I just want all papers to end faster. With them on my mind, i can't do anything relaxing.
1008 end = 70% load of my mind.
= )
Hehes.
Enough of the break, heading back to complete the last paper!!
Jiayou to all studying out there.
Good Luck for tomorrow~~(*not that u peeps need luck*)
Hehes!

Just saw an eye candy online~
Lol~
Ok, shall start one paper and end 1009 today.
Then start practicing a lil of 1008.
Meemee said i need to go pray today, so yeaps.

Sis is having a lecture online = no need go school.
So good can~ I want online lectures too~!~!~!
Lols.
Cut the crap and head to 1009. One more practice cpaper to go~~~
*screams*

Gastric pains~

One of the worst thing to happen when studying is when you get gastric pains and hunger at the same time.
I AM HUNGRY.
Ask me what i ate today.
NOTHING!
Besides like 10cornflake cookie and a few slices of bak kua.
NOTHING ELSE!
Oh yes, i am lazy to get proper meals.
And thus, i am in hunger now.
HUNGRY!
I will need to get proper breakfast tomorrow.
T_T

Hungry! One more paper to go!

Genes

Lols. Now i know where i got the "forgetful" genes from already.
Meemee said she think she threw her spects into the dustbin.
=.=
Worst then me~
LOL.
Been working on the same question and realised it's because i didn't see the qns properly.
Argh~

Math anxiety saps working memory needed to do math
By Julie Steenhuysen Mon Feb 19, 9:03 AM ET

SAN FRANCISCO (Reuters) - Worrying about how you'll perform on a math test may actually contribute to a lower test score, U.S. researchers said on Saturday.

Math anxiety -- feelings of dread and fear and avoiding math -- can sap the brain's limited amount of working capacity, a resource needed to compute difficult math problems, said Mark Ashcroft, a psychologist at the University of Nevada Los Vegas who studies the problem.

"It turns out that math anxiety occupies a person's working memory," said Ashcroft, who spoke on a panel at the annual meeting of the American Association for the Advancement of Science in San Francisco.

Ashcroft said while easy math tasks such as addition require only a small fraction of a person's working memory, harder computations require much more.

Worrying about math takes up a large chunk of a person's working memory stores as well, spelling disaster for the anxious student who is taking a high-stakes test.

Stress about how one does on tests like college entrance exams can make even good math students choke. "All of a sudden they start looking for the short cuts," said University of Chicago researcher Sian Beilock.

Although test preparation classes can help students overcome this anxiety, they are limited to students whose families can afford them.

Ultimately, she said, "It may not be wise to rely completely on scores to predict who will succeed."

While the causes of math anxiety are unknown, Ashcroft said people who manage to overcome math anxiety have completely normal math proficiency.

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Read this piece of news the moment i log on the net.
Maths anxiety. Okok.
I am having maths exam on Monday..so i will let my self relax on sunday.
I used to apply the technique or rather go through the routine of relaxing a day before exams and not study and talk about that particular topic on the day of exams.
Hehes.
Time to follow that routine perhaps?
Hehes.

Oh yes, my lol syndrome is back.
Yeaps. When there is something funny, i will want to say lol out instead of laughing.
Oh my, shall STOP writing the word lol online or anything already.
Hahas.
Oh yes, and talking about duckie post.
There is no reason behind it.
Michelle do things with no reason at times.
Del and hl were guessing what it meant.
But hahas, dont waste ur brain cells.
Lols.
Doing things for no reason creates more fun.
= )

Study time! A paper a day keeps worries at bay.
= )

I have been dreaming the same dream for years.
And it's beginning to freak me out.
Last night i got the same dream.
What is it?
I will be driving a car on a road and i know i am dreaming.
I will be trying hard to wake up and will keep blinking my eyes but of course, i can never wake up until the dream ends.
I will be at first driving a car then suddenly into a bicycle. And the bicycle is the same for all similar dreams.
Once at a certain rate, the bicycle can fly one.
Then i will be flying and flying but this time is different.
Because there is a man wanting to steal the bike away from me.
He kept chasing after me and kept asking me what the bike is made of. And the special bike requires feather to make it fly. I told him there's only two and he ran faster after me.
And at the end, a small boy saved me. And so, i kepy cycling and cycling. And that place is like my house void deck.
But i kept cycling and then suddenly rain and i fell into a pool of mud. Then the bicycle spoilt. Can't find some of it's parts.

And i woke up from the dream.
Have you ever have similar dreams since young? And you know you are dreaming, tried blinking your eyes but you just can't wake up from the dream.
Scary and yet interesting.

Movies i so want to watch!!

Rating	NC16
Consumer Advice	War Violence
Genre	Drama
Main Cast	Ken Watanabe, Kazunari Ninomiya, Tsuyoshi Ihara
Director	Clint Eastwood
Release Date	22 February 2007
Running Time	140 minutes

Sixty-one years ago, U.S. and Japanese armies met on Iwo Jima. Decades later, several hundred letters are unearthed from that stark island’s soils. The letters give faces and voices to the men who fought there, as well as the extraordinary general who led them, Tadamichi Kuribayashi (Ken Watanabe). With little defense other than sheer will and the volcanic rock of the island itself, Gen. Kuribayashi’s unprecedented tactics transform what was predicted to be a quick and bloody defeat into nearly 40 days of heroic and resourceful combat.

Rating	PG
Consumer Advice	Some Sexual Humour
Genre	Comedy
Main Cast	Kal Penn, Adam Campbell, Jennifer Coolidge
Director	Jason Friedberg, Aaron Seltzer
Release Date	15 February 2007
Running Time	85 minutes

Numerous big budget movies are parodied in EPIC MOVIE, with the central narrative allowing its cast to poke fun at films such as CHARLIE AND THE CHOCOLATE FACTORY, NACHO LIBRE, SNAKES ON A PLANE, and many others.

Rating	NC16
Consumer Advice	Some Disturbing Scenes
Genre	Horror
Main Cast	Song Yun-a, Lee Dong-wook, Kim Ok-bin
Director	Ahn Sang-Hoon
Release Date	8 February 2007
Running Time	115 minutes

Veteran detective So-young and her rookie partner Hyun-gi happen onto an incendiary homicide case. While Hyun-gi is goofing up and distracting So-young, So-young senses that there is something wrong in the case. They discover that the present case is somehow related to the mysterious death of a girl ten years previously. At this point, So-young becomes plagued with nightmares in which the girl appears. And the serial killings continue. ...

Rating	TBA
Consumer Advice	TBA
Genre	Comedy
Main Cast	JUNG Ji-hoon (Rain), LIM Soo-jung
Director	PARK Chan Wook
Release Date	8 March 2007
Running Time	100 minutes

Young-goon is admitted to a mental institution. Believing herself to be a cyborg, she refuses to eat and instead charges herself with a transistor radio. At the institution, she sees a young man playing ping pong wearing a mask. He is Il-soon, an off-beat character who has the ability to steal personal and intangible things from people, like habits and characteristics. Young-goon finds all this charming and they become fast friends. Young-goon faints because she refuses to eat, and even become delusional. Il-soon is racked with worry and is determined to get her eating again.

Rating	TBA
Consumer Advice	TBA
Genre	Horror
Main Cast	Dylan McDermott, Penelope Ann Miller, John Corbett
Director	Oxide Pang, Danny Pang
Release Date	15 March 2007
Running Time	NIL

This dark supernatural thriller from brothers Oxide Pang Chun and Danny Pang stars Dylan McDermott, Penelope Ann Miller, and Kristin Stewart as a family trying to take over and run a remote sunflower farm. But the ominous signs that something is very, very wrong with their new home increase and crystallize following the arrival of a drifter (John Corbett).

Rating	TBA
Consumer Advice	TBA
Genre	Animation
Main Cast	Mako, Sarah Michelle Gellar, Chris Evan, Zhang Ziyi
Director	Kevin Munroe
Release Date	23 March 2007
Running Time	NIL

Strange events are occurring in New York City, and the Turtles are needed more than ever, but Raphael, Donatello, and Michelangelo have become lost and directionless. With the city at stake, it's up to Leonardo and Zen Master Splinter to restore unity and ninja discipline to the Turtles.

I will get back to study!! Arg!! Kerstina is tempting me to use it~

You know that kinda feeling?
Hmmms, let me think of a nonsensical way to put it.
Let say, you have this super yummy duck on the table.
And there's left with one. No sharing allowed in the restaurant.
Then there are people surrounding the table.
Not alot of people actually. But those people around the table are wanting to get that yummy duck.

I want the yummy duck very very much. But because i told everyone i am on diet, i cannot express that out. So, i just stare at the yummy duck. If i told everyone i am dying to have that yummy duck, the plate will just be taken away and given to someone else. And if i told everyone that i want that yummy duck, most probably i will be condemn since i said i am on diet.
So, all i can do is stare at the yummy duck, waiting for someone to collect it, or waiting for it to roll over (*chances of that happening is 0.000000001% since it's dead*).
Staring and waiting is a tiring process. I can only sit and watch from a far.

The desire to want that yummy duckie is strong yet there i can't voice it out, or the yummy duck will be taken away. I can't have the yummy duck. I can't tell anyone about me wanting the yummy duck. I can only stare at the yummy duck. Hearing people say who should take the yummy duck. Perhaps when i see the yummy duck being taken away, i will feel sad (*food leh*) but there is nothing i can do, since i am not supposed to have the yummy duckie. And the yummy duckie totally show signs of dislike towards me.


Hmmms. Somehow managed to convey how i feel in that really weird way.
Yeaps. Weird right?
But it's interesting to write your feelings in a totally weird way. Because no one will understand what the heck is going on.
Hahas. I just tend to want to do things that no one understands~
LOL.

This is the new year right?
And i am having two wish on my mind now.
And they contradict each other so much.
They are two changes i want to make. And if they contradict..then how?
One of them is to be outspoken, someone that talks alot and well, a great joker and stuff.,
And another one is to be a quiet and observant person.
Contradicting right?
I love being the super outspoken girl.
But now, i am just fond of not talking much and start to observe people and how they react to stuff.
Thoughts are kept in the mind and hmmm, you learn alot from observing.
Lols, i am such a contradicting person. LOL.

But it's normal for gemini people to contradict themselves right~
Lols.
I am tired. Very tired.
But cannot, tomorrow go on full time studying already.
Throw my lappy away then~ Hahas.

Don't let me feel that you dislike me. I hate it
Don't let me feel that you dislike me. I hate it
Don't let me feel that you dislike me. I hate it

p/s: And to the person with the hp number starting from 9127XXXX, please do tell me who you are.
I might have deleted your number. And i won't reply because i scared is those expensive number.
So tell me who you are if you are reading my blog.
Thankies

Tired.
Woke up early and after breakfast left to mama house to have lunch buffet.
It's tragically boring!
Lols, no one we knew well was there so we just watched teevee and ate.
Sis and mee played poker while i sat there waiting for hl's message.
wait and wait.
And i left at around 3plus. Buffet was yummy la!
Hehes.
Collected a few ang baos.
Small one la.

Walked and took the bus.
And walked half way, RAIN!
So walked as fast as i could.
Then saw a grp of Bangladesh workers teasing this lady.
She was wearing freakily short and well, heels and stuff that made her sexy.
So they kept whistling.
Lols. Can tell she is pissed of.
You don't see a group of girls whistling at guys right~
Pathetic.
Then took the bus to yishun and my legs are like blister filled. So just took the cab.
$5 OK!
T_T Then reached home and lay down to "sleep".
Wake up, stared at the 1009 paper then headed back to "sleep".
Then del,hl,wk and sl reached.

Ok, never mind i am too lazy to blog!
Oh yes, we headed to play with sparklers at night.
Same people. del,wk,sl.
Attempts to make rocket failed.
But it's nice to see people try to "experiment" with stuff.
Hehe.
Then headed back up.

So, it's kinda an interesting chu san for me?
Maybe.
Lols.
But i am like down with a terrible headache!
Ar! And my eyes are pretty red now due to the fact that i didn't wear glasses today.
Just so sick of wearing glasses and looking into the mirror.
T_T Lols. Pathetic.

Tomorrow shall start studying OFFICIALLY.
If you see me online, just scold and scream at me alright?
Although i am feeling super sleepy and tired, i won't sleep.
Wanna enjoy my last moments of entertainment before i officially start studying tomorrow.
Ar!!
Fine, studying is fun.
= )
Oh yes, meemee finally know that i spilled water on kerstin.
I am not spared of naggings once again.
= )
But it indeed is my fault, so well, accept it.
Heh heh

Learnt, or rather, played a new card game today.
Called in between.
Interesting game.
Win alot, and lose alot too.
It's really, hmmm, an interesting game if you are lucky.

Da Nian Chu Er de confession

Lols. The blog entry title machiam what thing so serious right.
No la, was MSN-ing and we came up with the idea.
We, being Mr XN(*he insist on me changing the name la*) and me.
So we were talking and then we got really bored online and i just didn't want to touch my 1009 stuff.
And the usual thing we will do is to flood the whole conversation chat with lala, lol, haha, hehe, hehe, bah bah, blaah blaah, bwack, and you know, nonsensical words.
But since it's NEW YEAR, we wanted to change to something more PRODUCTIVE.
And god knows how we starting talking about each other's weaknesses.
DA NIAN CHU ER TALK ABOUT WEAKNESSES!
Never mind, means need to improve right.
And so embarrassing. If he were to tell me f2f, i think my face will red till explode.
Like many said, i like to avoid things lo.
Why? That is the first impression i give him also~
Embarrassing!
Lol!
You know, initially, friends, when there is silence, it will be awkward. It's only when become close friends/good friends that silence become comfortable right.
Okok, we met up together to catch a movie (*the day after tomorrow,if we were not wrong*). Because sad to say, no one wanted to acc us when we really wanted to watch that movie. So we met up and watch that movie. We were more of the "hi. bye" kinda friends then. So it can be awkward going out together especially when i sucks at striking up conversation with people i don't know that well.
Then if i am not wrong, we took the mrt. Then you know, on the mrt, together never talk very awkward right and i hate that kind of situation one.
So guess what i did.
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.
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.
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.
.
.
.
.
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I pretend to sleep!
And up till today, i thought i conceal that very well!
So, he knew all along.
He said it looked rather fake.
T_T
And on both journey back, i pretended to sleep!
Oh my gosh! So embarrassing man~
And then, we were having lunch at donno where.
Poor memory we all have.
And many times, when suddenly silence breaks in, i will look away and the usual thing, take out my phone and pretended to do something.
Ar!
Embarrassing. But it's in the blood. My sis also do that one~
And i thought no one can tell the difference up till today!
Embarrassing. After like one year? Or three years? Then i know.
T_T
Well, i figured out that if i am awake and he is aware of the awkward situation then it will be abit embarrassing. SO just pretend to sleep. At least silence is normal like that mahs.
Diaos. I thought i managed to make everything less awkward.

So i was cheated for more than two years.
LOL!
And i pretend to sleep very fake?
Pretend to use phone very fake?
Fine, i shall stop pretendin to sleep and pretend to use phone to avoid situations.
I will brush up my skills on them.

As for him, he is like not alot of weakness that kind of person. Well, he conceal his weakness damn well. Even his weakness can let him say until is strength. Can't stand people who can talk so well.
T_T
Ar..Shall head back to youtubing on MayDay!