You know that kinda feeling?
Hmmms, let me think of a nonsensical way to put it.
Let say, you have this super yummy duck on the table.
And there's left with one. No sharing allowed in the restaurant.
Then there are people surrounding the table.
Not alot of people actually. But those people around the table are wanting to get that yummy duck.

I want the yummy duck very very much. But because i told everyone i am on diet, i cannot express that out. So, i just stare at the yummy duck. If i told everyone i am dying to have that yummy duck, the plate will just be taken away and given to someone else. And if i told everyone that i want that yummy duck, most probably i will be condemn since i said i am on diet.
So, all i can do is stare at the yummy duck, waiting for someone to collect it, or waiting for it to roll over (*chances of that happening is 0.000000001% since it's dead*).
Staring and waiting is a tiring process. I can only sit and watch from a far.

The desire to want that yummy duckie is strong yet there i can't voice it out, or the yummy duck will be taken away. I can't have the yummy duck. I can't tell anyone about me wanting the yummy duck. I can only stare at the yummy duck. Hearing people say who should take the yummy duck. Perhaps when i see the yummy duck being taken away, i will feel sad (*food leh*) but there is nothing i can do, since i am not supposed to have the yummy duckie. And the yummy duckie totally show signs of dislike towards me.


Hmmms. Somehow managed to convey how i feel in that really weird way.
Yeaps. Weird right?
But it's interesting to write your feelings in a totally weird way. Because no one will understand what the heck is going on.
Hahas. I just tend to want to do things that no one understands~
LOL.

This is the new year right?
And i am having two wish on my mind now.
And they contradict each other so much.
They are two changes i want to make. And if they contradict..then how?
One of them is to be outspoken, someone that talks alot and well, a great joker and stuff.,
And another one is to be a quiet and observant person.
Contradicting right?
I love being the super outspoken girl.
But now, i am just fond of not talking much and start to observe people and how they react to stuff.
Thoughts are kept in the mind and hmmm, you learn alot from observing.
Lols, i am such a contradicting person. LOL.

But it's normal for gemini people to contradict themselves right~
Lols.
I am tired. Very tired.
But cannot, tomorrow go on full time studying already.
Throw my lappy away then~ Hahas.

Don't let me feel that you dislike me. I hate it
Don't let me feel that you dislike me. I hate it
Don't let me feel that you dislike me. I hate it

p/s: And to the person with the hp number starting from 9127XXXX, please do tell me who you are.
I might have deleted your number. And i won't reply because i scared is those expensive number.
So tell me who you are if you are reading my blog.
Thankies